Hi my name is Kathleen, I am 23 years old and am a recovering heroin, oxy, methadone addict. Don't ever let those bring you down or make you feel some type of way that you fall apart and possibly relapse. All we want is peace, and the only way is to ask for help. Like you mentioned, they can read books and attend meetings, but they will never know the struggle we go through and the constant battle we have in our minds. You are not weak addiction is a disease, and it has nothing to do with strength, and others don't see that it's sad. We need others to give us courage and love when needed. To stay sober longer, we need that support system because we cannot do it alone. Either can relapse, but one has support to fall back on and the other doesn't, making it hard to bounce back. Life jackets are treatments, group meetings, speaking to someone other than family, some sort of support, and those who aren't wearing one are those who are doing it alone. Some wear life jackets while others don't. Many of us are on that same boat with you. Sometimes it is a choice just to make it to the end of the day and go to sleep without getting high. But it's OK and the master of my domain I do have a choice today. No matter what I do, nothing will ever change the way people look at me and judge me. I believe in my heart I am, but no matter what, I will always get judged for who I am. I honestly don't even know who I am without drugs. But if they only knew what it takes to be clean for just one day, much less a few months or a couple years. Truth is I want to escape things because that's what I know. They think I am weak and that's why I relapse from time to time. But they don't know about the battle I face each day. They bought books and sat in on meetings. As the years go on for me, it gets easier and easier, but it's always a fight. Is every day Armageddon walks through their front door. How does it feel to dance with the Devil?Īre you honestly going to try and beat me?īesides, I'm in the mood for a good show.īut your sobriety has only lasted a year.Īnd I'll be the first thing that comes to mind.Ī vicious cycle, that's what you're thinking,Įveryone's looking for some Armageddon war. My naive child, there's no use trying to hide.
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